Craziness.

it's midnight. i'm, of course, still awake-even though I know I have to be up early in the morning. cool. Last night and tonight have been a little rough. I'm not really sure how to think about life. Today, I had the realization that the person you know you're destined to be with will be your best friend. They will be through there through everything. I have two of those, but both already have significant others.

My control issues are at an all-time high right now. It's so hard to let God handle things in your life, because you think you know what is best for you. He has a better plan than we could ever imagine, and I have to make myself remember that, especially on nights like tonight where I wonder where the love of my life could be. Being single (now, for almost a month), it has shown me how much I needed to be alone. This shows me that God knows what's best for me.

My social life has finally picked back up again. I've missed being around people who want to be around me. Thank God for my friends.

School is killing me. I should have listened to my friends and not have taken two science classes. AHH, Baptist, why must you make everything so hard...

I miss my guy best friends. period.

This weekend will be good. I promise.

Song of the day: Wanted, Hunter Hayes.

You know you love me,
GG

Down the road the sun is shining...

Just a warning: Emotional Wreck is about to happen.

I just wish some people would go fall off a cliff. Break-ups happen. I know that. But, seriously, do guys have to check to make sure they hurt you bad enough? Is it necessary to text someone just to make them relive the last X number of months and weeks that you spent together? I literally don't know that i've ever hurt this bad before. I thought I was doing okay. Until, he had to cut open an already deep wound. I want to hate you. I really do. But I just don't know that I have it in me.

To the person who did this to me:
I want you to know how bad this hurts. The physical pain is almost unbearable. I cry myself to sleep about five nights a week. The other two nights, i've passed out from taking cough syrup. You don't even care. You never did. I wish i would have never let myself get to the point that I did with you. You are a sorry piece of crap. I hope the next girl does the same exact thing to you that you just did to me. I guess it helps that you know you treated me like crap....

To the people who have been there, I thank God everyday for each of you. You can't even imagine how much I appreciate you. Even at midnight, you're there to cheer me up. My new friends, and the ones who have always been there: you guys are amazing. I couldn't have made it where I am in life without you.

Sorry, I had to get this all off my chest. I'm not usually like this...

Song for today: One Day You Will, Lady A. Perfect Song.

You know you love me,
GG

Too tired for a title...

Well, here it goes: Blog #2! Told you I'd be better about updating this thing. :)

So, my life today is yet again, another rollercoaster. I'm beginning to believe I'm never going to get off of this adventure ride. Got some pretty hurtful news today, but then again, what's new?

Relationships are hard and complicated things. You can't make someone love you if they don't want to or can't love you, and you just can't make yourself stop loving someone whenever you want to. I'll tell you this: It's hard to look at someone you love, knowing they don't love you back. Life sucks sometimes.

But, y'all know me, gotta make this positive: God is looking out for each and every one of us. He knows what's going on in our lives, and he knows what's best for us. Just gotta learn to keep your eye on the prize. Don't live in the past, but don't forget to look in the rear-view mirror every once in a while. We shouldn't bask in what has happened to us, but we don't need to forget the lessons we've learned either.

Sorry, this might seem a little scatterbrained- i've taken some cough medicine (for my bronchitis) and it's making me a little tired.

Success happened today. One step closer to some of my goals. Lost 2 pounds. Yay for me.

Well, that's about it. I need some sleep.

Song of the Day: If you could only see; Tonic. Listen and Love.

You know you love me,
GG

All you need is Friends...

Well, kids, fell off the blogging wagon again. I am going to make an effort to blog more often now. I know what you're thinking- Heard that before...hahaha. But really. This time is for real.

I've decided, once again, it's time for goals. I have two weeks before school starts so I have time to get myself in gear. Plus, I watched the follow up video on the show called heavy tonight. Time to kick myself in high gear. So, Here's the list:

1. School is very important, and this semester is going to be super hard. I want to make a 3.5 GPA this semester. Stout, I know, but I know I can do it. Time to buckle down and STUDY!!

2. Don't fall in love at the Jersey Shore. (funny, yes, but I cannot let my relationships stop me from achieving my goals.)

3. Working out is a new priority, four days per week is the goal. I have motivation now that there's a tanning bed in the gym.

4. Get a pair of MissMe jeans for christmas. I can do this!!

5. Make it to at least 2 MSU home games this football season!

I guess five goals can be enough. I cannot wait to look back and see this! I want to know how I did with my goals this semester. I'm going to make a cute poster so I can keep up with how I am doing. Jessica G.- you would be so proud.

It's time to be the free-spirited happy me again. It's been about a month since I've felt that way. For some reason, my heart hurts. I just have to lean on God and know that what he's doing in my life is what is best for me. Because, after all, it is...

Quote of the Day: “No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friends.”

I need to thank my friends for putting up with me the past couple weeks. Thanks for letting me vent, cry on your shoulder, hug you until you about threw up, praying for me, and spending some of the best nights with me. I don't know what I could or would do without any of you. You hold a special place in my heart.

Special shout-out to my other halves javascript:void(0)in Madison, MS. :)

Song of the day: Freshman Year, Brantley Gilbert; Love reliving college...

You know you love me,
GG

Today was just one of those days. You know the kind that nothing seems to be going for you, yet somehow you find a light at the end of the tunnel. Always looking for the best in everything can be hard sometimes. Well, It's a new day. That's always a positive.

Don't get me wrong, I love life. I am SO blessed to have the things in my life that I do. This is why I strive to make everyday count for something, and for someone. It is so important for people to know that they are needed and wanted in this world. Just a little something I've gathered over my years.

Today, I had two MASSIVE tests, a paper due, and a to-do list as long as I am tall. And for once in my life, I am not stressed about it. THANK YOU LORD.

Making friends is so much fun. I throughly enjoy it. I am really starting to see that everything happens for a reason. Although I miss MSU, I am so happy to have met some of the people I have at Baptist. LML.

That pretty much sums up today EXCEPT: It was weigh in day! Another 2 pounds down. HOLLA!

EIGHT DAYS UNTIL I'M 21!

Today, my song of the day is going to be Tomorrow; Chris Young. Listen to it!

You know you love me,
GG

In Christ, there are no goodbyes; RIP, Matt.

This post is going to be pretty intense, just a little warning.

You know, life is so precious. We live; We breathe; We attempt to leave a mark on this world. But, if you think about it, no one really knows when it's their time to go. This weekend, I lost a friend of mine in a car accident. The crazy part about it: I just spent last weekend with him. It's crazy how life happens that way.

This experience takes me back to March 5, 2005. A day I will probably never forget. Being at the mall, and finding out a close friend had passed. You don't realize what you've got 'til it's gone.

We don't expect things to happen to us when we're young. We're invincible. Think we have it all. Matt Johnson, you were one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. A barrel of laughs. So fun to be around. I know you are missed and loved by many. Watch out for us down here. PS: I still owe you $10. :)

This whole thing leads me to a couple great points.

One: Don't take things for granted. We're not promised time on this earth.

Two: Everything happens for a reason. Even though things happen in our lives that seem to be bad, God is looking out for us.


Just a few things to catch you up on my life:
I have lost 12 pounds on my dieting adventures. (yay.) I miss starkville and all of the people there. And because of this weekend, I plan to live my life a bit differently.

The song of the day, (Actually, there's two!) Halfway to Heaven; Brantley Gilbert, and Homesick; MercyMe.


you know you love me,
GG

She hides her Paul Mitchell hair under that John Deere Hat...

Hey, Sorry It's been a little bit since my last blog. Things have gotten so hectic in my life. I have finally forced myself to focus on school and finding a job to replace my old one. Suddenly, I have NO time.

So, here's my venting for a little bit. I am in nursing school. The class that is giving me the most work load, World Religions. Something a little wrong with this picture? I think yes.

My life has recently turned pretty dang good. I mean, It has always been that way, though. I am just starting to notice that the more important things in life are the things that make me happy. (Always a good thing, right?) I am glad I don't need certain things to have a good time, such as drugs and such. Addiction tears people and families apart. Sad day.

BTW, dieting is going INCREDIBLE! I lost another 3 pounds this week. I'm feeling fabulous about myself.

Love life is pretty dull. I miss my guy friends. :(

So, I am super excited about this week's SONG! It's "My Kinda Woman", by Craig Morgan. I LOVE IT! Fit's my life, kinda perfectly.

You know you love me,
GG

You know, it won't be long 'til the guitar starts to play...

Well, it was an interesting day to say the least. I had an A&P test, which I originally thought was killer, but ended up only missing one question. YAY for being smart! Can I tell you what cholinergic versus adrenergic, not really sure.... haha. I guess I'll be figuring that out sooner or later.

It snowed today, like a freaking blizzard snow. It was nice, only I'm sooo ready for summer. Ready for pool parties, laying out, and NO SCHOOL! The sad part of that is that I just started school and it's the dead middle of winter. BOOOO. Oh well, spring and summer will be here soon enough.

So, here's my issues for this week: I can't focus on school. I have no idea why, but all I want to do anymore is be out with my friends. I think it's a little bit irresponsible, but I'm 20 years old. I feel like I can make mistakes, even if they are ones I know are wrong and I intentionally make the decisions to do them. I'll make up for them when I'm older. You're only young once, ya know...

Weighed in today because of the snow! Lost another pound! yayyyyyy! Getting ready for summer!

Hoping that Prince Charming shows up soon, I'm getting a little impatient.

Song of the Day: There's TWO! and both Brantley Gilbert again. Sorry, I just LOVE him! Saving Amy; & You Promised. (Not relative, just meaningful songs.)

You know you love me,
GG

We were young and wild, hanging out too late at night...

Girl, I love you crazy. It comes so easy after all we had. I can love with all my heart, but the hardest part is, I just can't love you back. Not the song of the day, but a pretty powerful and relative song to my life. Heart breaks HURT. And, I don't mean just a little bit. They tend to hurt alot.

I'm finally free from being bound to heart break. I have finally let go of everything and realize that God has a plan for my life. The pain and the overpowering thoughts were holding me back from what I really want in life.

Speaking of what people want in life, My world religions class is starting to get to me. We are covering Hinduism. They believe some crazy things, but they have hit the nail on the head when it comes to what people want versus what people really want. Alot of times people believe that power, success, money, pleasure, etc. is what life is all about. However, life is more than that. Life is about love, and joy and all the things in life that you can't pay for. I love that a class I was dreading is turning out to be very positive for me.

Oh, Great News! I lost 5.3 pounds last week! I was super happy. I hope I do just as well this week! It's amazing how much better you body works when you feed it healthy food and not just junk (for lack of a better term...).

Met some really great people this weekend. SHOUT OUT to you guys!

That's about all that's going on in my life right now....

OHHHH, Song of the day is an incredible song; Freshman Year; Brantley Gilbert. It makes me smile REALLY big.

You know you love me,
GG

Maybe I'm a dreamer...

Maybe it's time for a change....

So, I just took on a whole new goal in life. Weight-Loss. I say that as if I've never done this before. (I clearly have...) Anyway, I started Jenny Craig on Saturday morning. It's an interesting diet, and I must say, I really like it. (so far, at least.) I believe it's finally time for me to do something for myself. I deserve to live the life I've always wanted for myself, skinny. I guess I can give an update every friday at weigh-in. That way, I can see my progress on here as well as let you guys know.

So, something has really been bothering me lately, and I figured I would share. A friend of mine's sister lost her boyfriend recently. I'm not sure of the whole situation, but that really has to be hard. I can't even imagine what that would be like. This whole situation has really got me thinking about my own life and relationships. As sad as this is, people aren't here forever. I have started evaluating my friendships, and have decided that I really need to start putting in more effort. I love everyone in my life and couldn't imagine losing one, especially I had not treated them like I loved them.

I might be moving out earlier than expected! I have to see if things come through for me, so, we shall see. I'm pretty excited. I will enjoy being on my own, i believe.

School's back in; BOOOOO. I have tons of homework, already. Guess I outta get some sleep so I can do it all tomorrow.


You know you love me,
GG

I gotta thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong...

Well, It's a new year. Looking back, I had many adventures, ups and downs, people coming in and out of my life. Wow, 2010, I can most likely say, "Don't let the door hit you on the way out."

Today, I have a smile on my face. I know in my heart that I am a strong, beautiful person that can accomplish anything I set my mind to. I guess these days that's the mindset you have to have to get anywhere in life.

Lesson for today: It doesn't really matter what a person really looks like. It's more of the way people carry themself, confidence being key. People can tell when others are down on themselves just by looking at them. I've learned and somewhat taught myself that even if it's a fake confidence, people notice a difference in you.

I miss being five years old. Nothing to worry about except who got to be star student and the line leader the next day in class. Man, those were the days. Sometimes I wish I could go back, but I kinda like the way I turned out. :)

Sorry, but this one is going to be a little short. I start back to school thursday. Gotta clean out my room and start attempting to pack.

You know you love me,
GG