It's the climb...

I can't get you out of the sunshine, I can't get you out of rain...

Lesson Learned this week: Sometimes, you just have to cry and cry and cry. It makes everything better.

I thank God every day for second chances. We all need them, and if any one understands this, it's me. People screw up in life. It's a simple fact. And, honestly, I would hate to live in a world when everything everyone did was right. It's like we would all be walking robots. Second chances always brings me back to the lesson in the last blog- Can't appreciate good times if you've never experienced the bad times.

I try to find my purpose in life, ALOT. I haven't exactly figured it out yet; but, I'm pretty sure it has to do with helping someone out. I mean, I am going to school to be a nurse. But, I also think it might be more than that. I want to have an effect on every person I meet. (A positive one, of course.) Which leads to another thing...

Lesson Learned #2: You can't please everyone. It's a hard one to accept, but definitely TRUE. Because everyone is different, it is impossible to please everyone at once. I'm trying harder now to make decisions for myself, not because someone or some people want me to. I feel like my whole life I have made decisions for someone else; now it's time for me to grow up and make them for myself.

I'm back to the valley, making the trek up the mountain. It's been a bumpy ride this time, for sure. If you asked me, I would say I'm not excited about the climb back up the mountain... But, It's the way life works out sometimes. I do however feel like I am changing my life for the better. Everytime I get in the valley is like a fresh new start, which is quite nice.

School starts back next week. Not sure how I feel about it exactly. I'm ready to move on with school but, I have alot of work still left. Gotta start somewhere I guess.

I'm so happy tomorrow is Friday and I'm off work. :)

Right now, I have to admit: I'm listening to Justin Bieber; I love "One Less Lonely Girl". I guess this one can be the song of the day.


That's all I got for today.

You know you love me,
GG

We're only human here, after all....

So, it's a brand new day and close to a brand new year. And because it's close to a new year, I feel the need to wrap up this year by saying a few things:

1. To all the people who entered my life, I couldn't be happier that you did. Each and every one of you are amazing people and I wouldn't trade you for the world. I know some of you and I have had many ups and downs, but God is shaping our relationships because he knows what we need and desire in this world. You have all made me so happy with life; a happiness you can't even imagine. THANK YOU!

2. To all the people who exited my life: I am glad you were a part of my life. No matter what the circumstances are, you left an imprint on me and shaped my life into what it is now. I am glad God put you into my life.

3. To my best friends: You guys never cease to amaze me with how much you stand by me and support me. I don't know if I could have done some of the things I have without each and every one of you this year. From moving schools to losing a close friend to just helping me keep my head up during the hard times, you guys are AMAZING. And just know, that I hope that I have given you the same feelings inside that you have given me.

4. To my family: Thanks for putting up with me through all the things that have happened in the year. I don't know if I could have made it without you.

2010 was a spectacular year and quite a miserable year all at the same time. But I have come to realize that God puts trials in our lives to help us grow as people and mature into something great. You can't expect everything to be all hunky-dory all the time. Going through a tough time makes you appreciate when you finally do get to the top of the mountain.

I'm ready to see what 2011 brings. Ready for new challenges, friends, and maybe love.

UPDATE:
1. Last day at Macy's was Wednesday. I throughly enjoyed working there as well as the people I met. I'm currently looking again, hopefully something will come up soon.
2. School is still out, ended up with a 3.79 for the semester. AHHH!
3. So happy to have my friends back home.
4. No loves. Hoping God brings the right one soon. :)

There's some insight into my life.

Today's song: Come On, Green River Ordinance. :)

You know you love me,
GG

Hey, It's me again...

So, I know it's been a while since I posted last; I'm trying to get better. I've had my ups and downs within the last few weeks. There are some FANTASTIC things going on in my life right now, and there are some no-so-great things too. I'm definitely keeping my head up. Just to keep those of you following me informed, Here's the lists of some of the goods. :)

FANTASTICS:
1. I found a jobbbb! Finally, after a long struggle, I am finally employed. It's not exactly the job I wanted but, I am still working on finding more options.
2. I take my last two finals on Monday. HALLELUAH! (And, I think I might have a 4.0!!!)
3. My braces are coming off Tuesday. I'm so excited that i'm barely sleeping at night.
4. I'm happy being single. I never thought I would say that, but it is a good feeling.
5. Christmas is soo soon! I can't wait. FAVORITE HOLIDAY!

So, I've finally made some decisions for myself. (I'm pretty pleased with myself, haha.) First, I will not settle on dating someone I know is wrong for me. I also will not date anyone who treats me anything less than what I deserve. I've done this wayyy too long and it's time for a change. Second, I know God has a perfect plan for my life, and I have finally stopped being a control freak and given it to him. He knows what I want, and will give me exactly what I desire and need in my life. I'm learning to trust him. It's a day to day process but, so far, IT'S AMAZING! Third, I need to focus on school like I did this semester, every semester. It's such a nice feeling to be at the end of the semester and not have to stress about grades.

Still missing my friends at State, alot. It's really hard being away from my support system. I guess that's what Facebook and cell phones are for. I'm so happy they will be home soon. :)

New favorite Song: Me Again, Uncle Kracker. - he actually has a softer side, and a heart. AMAZING song. Sorta explains what I am going through. (This is where the title comes from...)

Just learning to keep my head up; As put by another: Nothing puts your problems into perspective like passing a car engulfed in flames on your morning commute. "Yeah this meeting is gonna suck, but at least I'm not on fire.

You know you love me,
GG

I'm going to have to learn how to let you go somehow...

So, today is a downer kind of day. It rained today for the first time in months and it's doing crazy things to my emotions. I can't decide if I'm actually okay, or just pretending. I'm really confused about how I'm feeling right now. Am I over him or am I not?

Somehow, I'll move on baby just like you, when the desert floods and the grass grows blue...; Carrie Underwood.

All I want for my life is to be a successful nurse and mother. I want a beautiful marriage. It's just really hard being my age, which is not that old and seeing all of my friends getting engaged and married; and then there's me. It's really hard to trust God and be patient. But, I'm trying my hardest. That's for sure.

Anyway, there's my life. Hope it starts to look up soon.

You know you love me,
GG

Roll with it...

Bad things sometimes happen to good people. This is a lesson I'm beginning to learn in life. God doesn't put things in our path to be hurtful or to just sit back and laugh. Everything happens for a reason, whether you make a bad grade on a test, or lose your job. God is shaping us to be the best that we can be so he can use us in his kingdom. You have to praise him in the good times and trust him in the not-so-good times. Thank you, Romans 8:28.

Insight: You don't always know what you've got until it's gone. This is a perfect quote for what I am currently dealing with. Like in my last post, I misssss MSU. Although things in my life are going okay, I miss my support system so much. This also goes for my friends at home. I miss you guys too!

Little Bit of an Update:

1. SCHOOL: yay, good gradesss! Dr. Kerns, my A&P teacher curved exam #2 and I got an A! :) Working towards my first 4.0 and Dean's List in Nursing School. Finally doing what I love!

2. Dating: Too complicated. I've decided I have much better things to do with my time. If that special someone comes along, then we'll talk about dating then...

3. Employment: Also complicated. Job search isn't going too hot. I hope the Lord puts the right opportunity in my path soon.

4. Home life: Still crazy; The top is for my mother, and me of course.


I'm keeping my head up for now.

You know you love me,
GG

You live, You learn. ♥

You know, It's always great to be able to go back and see how I felt about things in the past. It was incredible reading my last post and knowing I learned and have matured from the experiences that I was going through at that time!

I know it's been an incredibly long time since I blogged last. I know this because I couldn't even remember the password to my blog. Thank goodness I finally remembered. I am going to have a hugeeee update starting NOW:

1. Love life: Well, see I was in a relationship for quite a while and it ended in early August. I can't believe it's almost been two months since the breakup! And, for all who know me, I would usually take something like this and let it be a negative experience, but I haven't. I am probably the happiest I have been in a long time. I am free to do as I please and I am growing as a person every day! I loveeee my life right now. As of new potentials: none so far and I'm probably going to keep it that way!

2. School: What's up, Nursing School? Yes, I transferred from the love of my life, MSU and I am now attending Baptist College of Health Sciences, located in Memphis, TN. Not going to lie, It's nothing like MSU, but it definitely has it's perks. My classes went from 250 people to 25. I am free to speak up in class! FINALLY! I feel that I learn better this way! I am making some new friends, and I'm pretty happy about it.

3. Here comes the cheesy, sad part: I miss Starkville, MS more than anyone would ever understand. Starkville is where I found myself. Where I can be myself and feel like no one judges me because they are all in the same boat I am. Zeta Tau Alpha girls were/are my life. Because of ZTA, I have found my best friends, my bridesmaids, and some of my lifelong friends. Never in a million years think that I would be the person I am today, but because of Mississippi State and the Gamma Zeta chapter of ZTA, I learned to become myself and I thank God everyday he gave me the experiences that he did while I was there.

4. Myself: This summer I went through my jaw surgery procedure! Finally, after two years of fighting insurance companies, I finally was able to have it. It was a fairly good experience, only had one major complication (I'll spare the details; it wasn't pretty.) I lost almost 20 pounds during the liquid diet I was on for 2 weeks, always a plus. Finally, it's been about 6 weeks now and almost all of my swelling is gone. On another note, I enjoy going to the gym now. It's pretty much one of my favorite things to do these days.

5. Employment: I am currently looking for a job, hopefully one in a hospital to get some good experience!

Anyway, that's about it for me, tonight! I have a huge test tomorrow!

You know you love me,

GG